My Wish List

I'm linking this post up to Love Stitched .  I love this idea Brittany has and thought it would be a great post.  I've been following Brittany for a while now and think shes great.  I wish I had her sewing talents.  And how cute are her boys?!. 

I'm going to follow her points:

WANT LIST {been on my "wish list" for a while now}

WISH LIST {better save my pennies or wait til a big holiday}

DREAM LIST {in my dreams...maybe ONE day}

WANT LIST:

Ashley Lynn Necklack from the Lovestitched Shop on Etsy.  You can find it HERE

Coach Handbag

Vintage Ring from Etsy


WISH LIST:



Canon EOS



Singer Sewing Machine

Michele watch


DREAM LIST:

A big beautiful house with a white kitchen on the beach in California
A girl can dream can't she???

This craft room will be in my house on the beach

This shoe wall will be in my closet in my house

Lexus SUV



Should we?

Should we try for a 3rd child?
That's the question we've been tossing back and forth for a while now.
Some days we think "yes", we will try and others we think "no way".

Hubs and I have been blessed with 2 healthy little girls. 
I had good pregnancies without any complications, and was able to deliver both of my girls naturally.
Can a girl really ask for anymore?.  I know a lot of people and read a lot of babyloss blogs and they unfortunately can't say the same.  My heart truly goes out to them and I couldn't imagine going through what they have. 

Hubs and I have always said we'd like to have 3.  We got pregnant easily with Eve and just before she turned 2 we decided to try for the second child.  It took 14 months and 3 rounds of Clomid to conceive Lilah.  I couldn't understand why it was taking so  long when we practically threw our knickers in the same wash load and conceived Eve!.  We tried for 6 solid months and then I went to the doc.  My GP suggested to do 3 rounds of clomid and hopefully that would bring a positive result.  So after 3 months of Clomid we still weren't pregnant.  I was dumbfounded.  I would have practically cut off my limbs to be pregnant at that point. 

It was December 2008 and we decided to make the move over seas here to Aussie land, and had also decided to stop trying until we were here and settled.  Well the next  month we were pregnant.  I was beside myself with joy and happiness.  I truly think it was the fact that we weren't focused on it, and I didn't (although I wanted to) chart my temperature once that cycle.  Now, I'm not by any means saying that if you stop focusing on it, that it will happen.  And I'm sorry for any of my readers that are going through the same thing.  That is just how it happened for me.

Once my beautiful Little Lilah Lulu was born, I was instantly in love.  I of course wondered while I was pregnant if it was possible to love another like you love your current child.  But trust me - you can and you do. 

To say it was difficult for me after I had Lilah would be an understatement.  You can read all about that HERE. 

I have a job I love now, and balance in my life.  I feel like "me" again.  Having my 2 girls is good.  So to go back and have a 3rd is extremely scary for me because I'm in total fear of loosing "me" again.  I'm scared of falling into the deep hole I was in.  I'm scared of not being able to cope.  Of course I love babies and would be so blessed to have a 3rd child no doubt, but am I asking for too much?.  Would it push me over the edge?. 

Lately I feel more like a referee to the girls than their mother!.  Those are the moments I think to myself 'What if I was refereeing these fights over crayons and how Lilah took Eve's fork with a baby latched onto me or screaming". 

I suppose I've just sort of answered my own question haven't I?.  It appears through reading this that right now I am just not ready.  Perhaps in time I will be?

Ten on Tuesday - 10 things I love

I love this Link Party that Kim at It's a Crafty Life has on Tuesdays.  I've actually learnt some new things about myself, and i've met so many other bloggers. 

Here are 10 things I LOVE:

1.  I love this man!.  

2.  One of the reasons I love that man is because he gave me these 2 little Loves!.  I love these 2 girls more than life. 

3.  I love my family. 

4.  I love my iPad!

5.  I love this blog: Momma Go Round

6.  I love my job

7.  I love this girl.  She's my Bestie. 

8.  I love Popcorn

9.  I love when it rains as i'm falling asleep at night

10.  I love my Honda

Some Quotes I love

WIW: BORING!!!

This is the second week i've taken pictures of what I wore.  Notice it's all work wear?!.  Since I work 4 days/week and on my day off (Friday) and the weekend you can usually find me in sweats without my hair washed and without make-up, work wear is pretty much it.  SCARY!!!!.  

Also notice that my outfits are all black and grey again?!?!.  

This last photo isn't the best quality because it was taken with my photobooth on my new iMac.  

We got this new computer this week and are still learning how to use it.  I'm seriously contemplating taking lessons!.  I just tried to cut and paste and it doesn't work???.  Hrmmmmm.  

Ofcourse i'll be linking this to Momma Go Round's Real Momma Real Style and The Pleated Poppy's WIWW.  

Giveaway at 50 followers

I'm going to do a giveaway when I reach 50 followers.  

So all of you readers tell your friends, fellow-bloggers, co-workers, family etc to check me out and follow me!.  

I love you guys and love all of your comments.  I've recently encountered some fellow bloggers that are so cool and inspiring!.  I even met someone who has a Lilah!.  And guess what - she spells it the same!.  

Happy Anniversary!

2 daughters, hard times, good times & 1 international move - here we are, 6 years later. 

On June 24th, 2005 I married a great man. 

We have had our hard times no doubt.  We've had our fights and disagreements, but we're still here.  Our relationship gets stronger every day.  We grow together everyday.  I learn something new about Hubs each day.  He has given me the 2 most precious gifts anyone could ever have - my 2 little baby girls. 

We were young when we married.  Perhaps too young.  Over the 6 years of marriage I have watched Hubs grow into a man i'm proud of and admire.  I could have never asked for someone more hard working to provide for his family than him.  I often think one of his faults is working too hard and being a work-a-holic. 

Our marriage has withstood some really trying times.  Moving overseas isn't an easy thing on a marriage, but we've gotten through it.  Our marriage has also withstood my hard time (read about that HERE).  I will admit that there have been times I didn't think we would get through, but we have.  We have always managed to make it and get past our hard times. 

  I'm proud to call you my husband, and this post is for you.  Happy Anniversary Babe.  I love you!

"Don't be afraid of Change"

A lot of things have changed in the past few years and I've changed with them.

I would think it would be safe to say I'm a relatively different person than I used to be.

Of course being a different person also comes along with the 2 little people I now have in my life.  My 2 little wee girlies have changed me so much.  I look at life completely different now, and live my life completely differently as well.  

I used to detest change!.  I liked things the same.  I liked to have the same routine, the same people in my life, the same job, the same type of clothes etc.  I would get really anxious when things would change. 

I'm a planner.  I plan everything!.  I like to know exactly what I'm doing from one day to the next - I would even go as far as saying from 1 minute to the next.  Funny example is - I often as my Mother-in-Law what they're doing on the weekend and she always answers "I don't know".  I get a bit annoyed at that because I'm a planner and like to plan things.  I like to know exactly whats going on, what time things are at, and what were doing next.  Perhaps that comes along with having kids???

Considering how much has changed for me in 2 short years I think I've adapted very well.  I've moved countries, had a baby, got a different job, moved house, changed my car, got a new computer - and I got an iMac, which I've never had a Mac before so I'm unsure how things work on those PC's.  My weight has changed as well, so has my hair, skin and my eye sight.  So many scary changes in 2 years, and I've learnt to deal with them accordingly.  I'm slowly learning to sit back, relax and enjoy the ride we call life.  I'm learning to take it all in and embrace all the changes that have come and will come my way. 

Image from Google Images

I'm not afraid of change anymore.

P.S.  Have you checked out my new "changed" blog design?!. 
This is courtesy of Ashley @ Eisy Morgan She is amazing and has done a great job! 
Thanks again Ashley! xx

Dear 20 month old Lilah;

How has 20 months passed??

I remember your birth as if it happened 10 minutes ago.

My memory is ingrained with my water breaking as i'm limping into the hospital and 10 minutes later you; my perfect 7 pound 12 ounce baby was born.

You came out fast and furious!. 

One of my favorite moments was when your big sister, Eve met you for the first time.  I will never forget the look of admiration on her face.  The baby sister that has been in mommy's belly for SOOO long had finally arrived.

Nursing you came easy.  You latched very well and we had 10 amazing months of nursing.  Nursing you in the middle of the night was my favorite time.  It was quiet, and we would often fall asleep together while cuddling.  I'll always cherish those days of breastfeeding you. 

This is one of my favorite pictures of you and I

If I could post all the pictures of you on here I would, but theres hundreds upon hundreds of photos!

One of my greats pleasures in life has been watching the relationship between you and your sister Eve flourish.  I have 2 sisters and know how amazing it is to have sisters. 

You guys have quickly become the best of friends. 

Then you turned 1.  Such a bittersweet day for me.  I couldn't believe that 1 year had passed.  You grew up so quickly!

You started to walk right around your 1st Birthday.  You just got up and took off.  We had to get a gate for the stairs, and watch you like a hawk.  You have been such a good little girl, and i'm so proud to have you as my daughter.  I couldn't ask for anything more than the 2 most perfect girls I have.

I can't wait to see what the next 20 months bring!