Reflections on 2 years

2 Years

104 Weeks

730 Days

17,520 Hours

1,051,200 Minutes

63,072,000 Seconds

That's how long it has been since I have seen my family. 

June used to be a normal month for me.  Growing up it was the month we finished school.  Then I got married in June (the 24th to be exact), so it became the month of my wedding anniversary.  Now it's still the month of my wedding anniversary but it also has this looming feeling when it rolls around because it's also the last month I saw my family in. 

It's really hard to believe 2 entire years has passed since i've had a hug from my mom or had dinner at her place on a Sunday.  It sometimes feels like 2 years has flown by like a blink of an eye, then others it feels like it's been forever. 

In 2 years a lot has happened for me.  I've moved to a different country, i've had a baby and my oldest baby has started school.  I've moved house a few times, gotten a new car, started a new job and acquired 2 cats and 2 dogs.  I have a life here now.  Hubs also started a new job (a dream job), and got a new Car as well.  We have a house we love, kids we love, pets we love, cars we love and a life we love.  I should feel so full and happy with my life, but I don't think I ever will without my family here or being close to them. 

I've also made some amazing friends the past 2 years.  I have friends here that are there for me, and help me out a lot.  More than I could ever ask for an expect from people.  I am very thankful for them and will forever be indebted to them.  I have had a few friends here that have come and gone.  One in particular in a really pathetic way and now in hindsight I'm so glad we are not friends because this person is a very selfish person that I do not want in my life anyways.  But - I also have some amazing friends back in Canada whom I miss terribly and love so much.  One friend in particular is getting married this year.  I would cut off my limbs to be there for her.  She and I have been through it all together.  She knows me like no one else does.  I could not speak to her for years and I would bet all the money I have that things wouldn't change and we will always be the way we are.  It's an amazing and beautiful thing to have a friend like this.  One with no strings attached, and unconditional love.  She loves my girls as if they were her own and when she has kids I would imagine I'll love them like I love my own girls. 

There has been some events that I've obviously had to miss because of living so far away.  I knew that would be the case when moving here but I didn't anticipate how much it would hurt.  My grandpa turned 80 in April and it really stung knowing my family was together and we weren't there.  I try and plug through those hard times and carry on for the girls but it does take its toll. 

I'm unsure when I will get to go back home to visit.  All I know is that I love my family and friends so much and I can't believe it's been 2 whole years.