June 2009 approached quickly. Eve was as resilient as ever and adapted to whatever came our way.
Everything about moving to Australia felt to bitter-sweet to me. I've thought and thought about this and the only way I can best describe it as bitter-sweet. It was SO bitter because I was going to leave everything and everyone I knew, but I was so excited to see Hubs and embark on this new journey.
On the 3rd of June, 2009 Eve and I said goodbye to my family not knowing when we would see them again. We boarded an Air Canada flight to LA and them carried on with United Air Lines to Melbourne.
Life as I knew it was different from that moment on. I left. I was the black sheep that left the nest.
Little did I know of the adventure that was ahead of me.
I had a lot of time to think while on that flight. That flight is LONG!. It was 5 hours from Toronto to LA and then 15 from LA to Sydney and then just an hour from Sydney to Melbourne. But while on my 15 hour flight I did nothing but think. Eve was cuddled up beside me and sleeping and I didn't want to budge in fear of waking her. I knew we were in for a long night of flying and the more she slept the better. My 20 week pregnant belly was protruding over the seatbelt and I just put my head back and tried to fall into a slumber but could do nothing but think.
How was my life going to change?
Why have I done this?
When will I see my family again?
What lies ahead for me with this international move?
What's going to happen when Eve starts school?
Whats going to happen when I have my new baby girl?
Will everything be ok back home?
Will my mom ever forgive me?
Will my sisters, grandparents & rest of my family ever forgive me?
Will they forget about me?
Will my marriage survive this?
These were just a few of the questions that went through my head that long night. Of course I thought of these things before, but I was always reminded of just how perfect life was going to be in Australia. I never allowed myself to fall into such a sense of desperation of questions. All those questions were answered for me and I wasn't allowed to second guess them. I didn't want to second guess them. I was scared to second guess them.
The only thing I knew forsure at that point was that when I got off that flight Hubs would be there waiting for us. Anything after that was unknown.
Stay tuned for Part 8.
5 comments:
Again, I cannot imagine a big huge move like that plus you were pregnant traveling alone with your little Eve. I love reading your history. Thanks for sharing your heart with us and letting us know you a little more with each of these parts. You must have had to pull together tightly once in Australia in order to move forward, that must have been a big step forward in your marriage. xoxo Salena :)
You did it for your family! Sometimes young couples need to be alone to become a family. You are a mom now and you did what you knew would be the best for your family, (maybe not for you) but the best for your family. You should be very proud of yourself!I admire what you did Nicole!
You are doing a wonderful job :) I know how hard it is to move away from family - keep on truckin' on momma :)
I didn't move as far as you, but after 31 years of living within an hour of my mom and dad we moved 1700 miles away from them. I know that empty space in your heart.
PS. I love your blog!! It's one of my favorite things to read. :)
I cannot imagine how long that flight was in the sense it was such a life changing moment for you and your family. Just keep smiling and I can't wait for the next part. xoxo
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