Thursday, October 20, 2011

Denial

My baby is turning 2.  In 2 days.  Just like that.  How can this be?
 
I'm in serious denial about my Lulu Pop being 2.  I just can't believe it.  I can't help but think "what if this is my last baby?". 
 
What if she really is my last baby?
 
I know everyone says "time flies", but time has really literally flown by here and my baby is now a 2 yr old toddler.  Ugh, I cringe even typing the word toddler.  I want to freeze time right now, this second and keep her this small, innocent and perfect
 
Lilah doesn't talk as well as Eve did.  I think Eve came out of the womb speaking full sentences.  Lilah on the other hand says a lot of words, but doesn't put sentences together.  She still acts "babyish", as where Eve was more "grown up" at this age.
 
 She still has a bottle of milk at night.  Some may say "she's too old for a bottle", but I don't care.  She's my baby and she can have a bottle of milk if she wants.  And sometimes, when I'm home with her on Fridays and on the weekends, she will ask for a "bubba" before her nap, and I give it to her.  We cuddle and she drinks her milk. 
 
She still sleeps in a crib.  Some may also say that she should be in a bed, but again I don't care. 
 
I'm trying to look forward with excitement as to what shes becoming and how much she flourishes, but I can't help but be really sad about her being 2.  Some of you may think "she's crazy", but I'm really struggling with this. 
 
I have the day off with her tomorrow and I am going to spend every second soaking up my 1 yr old.  She will only be 1 for 1 more day.
 
 
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13 comments:

Amber said...

I worry about the same things! Peyton is 15 months and only knows the word kisses, and is not walking, does not even want to try. She acts like a 6 month old still and cries quiet a bit. Yet I still always wonder if I will ever have one more... Everyone tells me that the second does not always develop faster then the first. I think its all about their personality.


Happy Birthday to your sweet baby girl!

Beth @ Through the Eyes of the Mrs. said...

You have every right to feel this way and I think most of us do. We want to hold on to them at this age. The sweet innocent baby. The one that pronounces things wrong and says I wuv you mummy. I had a hard time moving our daughter out of her crib. She loved her crib. I didn't actually do it until she was two and a half. Mainly because of the size and she started waking up from lack of space. She is three and still has a sippy of milk before bed. I say it's your call and if anyone disagrees well then they disagree. Soak in every last moment tomorrow. Remember regardless of age they are always our babies. xoxo

Darcie said...

My daughter will be 2 Dec 2nd and I cannot believe it either. It went too fast!

Lindsay said...

I'm your newest follower from a Wednesday blog hop and I am so glad I found your blog. I love it, and your little girl is just precious! My only child is just about 4 months and while that's probably nothing, I've been all weepy about it because it feels like he was just born! And, whatever, I don't think she's ever too old to cuddle up with her mommy and have her bottle of milk! :)

Amy said...

I can totally relate. My little guy will be 2 in December and I swear he was born yesterday. They really do grow up in the blink of an eye. Enjoy every moment (after you scream and cry out of exasperation, of course) of the "terrible twos" because the next time you turn around, they will be much older and embarking on new paths in life, like being a teenager or starting high school. Not that any of my precious little ones would be to that point yet, or that I will have 2 teenagers in a couple months or anything. I'm still in denial! :)

Kourtney said...

Girl, I hear ya. I hope it gets easier, but I don't know how it can. I guess you probably just learn to except it and embrace each new phase. I've been hanging on to those last few baby habits (bottle, crib, pacifier, etc.) not for my little boy, but for myself! It's hard to let go. And that's okay... I don't plan to let him walk into kindergarten with a paci, so we're just fine right now. ;)
Enjoy your special day tomorrow with your sweet baby girl!!

Jenny said...

I know! My baby is turning 2 in December. IDK how this happened! LOL! I'm really really sad about it. Just yesterday he was just a tiny little baby whome I'd rock all day. Now he doesn't need mommy to rock him to sleep. I'm not even mommy anymore... I'm "Mom". Daddy is still daddy! Why did I loose my "y" Ha ha! Sounds funny after I type that out. But he's growning up way to fast! AND btw, he's still in a crib (he'd sneak out if he weren't), he still gets a bottle of milk at night (I bursh after), he even gets milk at naptime, he still has his paci for sleeping to. I don't care what others think. It's not like he'll be doing this forever. We need to treasure ALL of these momments! :)

Following back from the blog hop!

Munchie's Mama said...

I am right there with you girl. Gav turns 2 next month. He isn't talking yet (he's in speech therapy) so I still get to pretend that he is my little baby boy. He is growing way too fast. I just want to push pause to enjoy this time a little longer

Salena @ A Little Piece of Me said...

I know what you mean!! Hayden is turning 2 on the 10/25 and I don't want to say she's 2. She is really tiny, still only 20lbs and only now is looking like a toddler but still baby looking too. I still consider her a baby, she's not talking yet. She says some words but not really. So to say she's 2 is ridiculous to me. I think once the day of passes, it'll be easier to accept. Hang in there. :)

Katie said...

I hear ya! Hard to fathom how fast those 2 years fly by. Seems like Mads should still be little enough to be a "tree frog" all curled up on my chest. Maddy is 2.5 and she STILL sleeps in a crib too (why change a good thing??). If you figure out how to stop time let me know, I want in on it! And Happy Birthday Baby Girl! :)

Amy said...

My in-laws laugh at me for calling out 20 month old "baby", but he is still my baby and I reserve the right to call him that. He may talk in complete sentences, be potty training himself, but I still let him have his "fafa" (pacifier), I still sing him songs in the rocking chair before bedtime. It is sad to lose the baby age. There is nothing wrong with holding onto it.
BTW-I'm following back from Feed Me Friday. Sorry it has taken me so long, but better late than never, right. LOL Oh So Savvy Mom

Lacey said...

You're definitely not crazy! My baby is almost two and a half, and I don't know if he is our last baby or not either. I refer to him as a baby, and while he goes to sleep in a "big boy bed," I still have a crib set up for him in my room in case he wakes at night and wants to be with us. It goes by too quickly, we have to cherish each moment!

Belinda said...

visiting from friends cafe. They grow up so fast. I wish I could keep them little forever.

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