I don't even know how to begin this post. Perhaps by showing you the picture first you will get a better idea why I may be all over the place.
This is why I am so shaken up and scattered. I was in an accident - my first accident last night. We are all OK - thank god, but I'm still feeling dis-belief.
It really did happen in an instant, but the weird thing is that in that instant it felt like it was minutes. The actual impact literally lasted seconds, if not 1 second, but I can remember it as if it was played in really slow motion. You know when they put slow-motion on TV or something, thats how it feels to me. I remember my face almost hitting the steering wheel and it was all so slow. It still amazes me that the air bags didn't go off.
Once we were stopped, my first reaction was the girls. They were fine but hysterical. So I got them out and made sure they were ok.
Then I froze.
I didn't know what to do. I got my phone and tried to call someone but couldn't. I pressed phone, then the exit button about 10 times before I finally pressed "Hubs" in my recents. Hubs was at work and all I said was "i've had an accident", and he kept saying "are you ok, who with?", and I just kept saying "I had an accident, I had an accident". Oddly though I didn't shed a tear, I think I was in a panic and shocked that I couldn't have that reaction. I wasn't emotionally there. I was more in crisis management mode then anything.
Once my sis-in-law came and took the girls back to her place to get them some dinner, and settle them down was I finally able to call the insurance company to arrange a tow truck.
I'm upset about the car obviously, and ticked off at myself but more than anything i'm so thankful. I'm so thankful that we are all ok. I was cuddling the girls last night once we got home and thinking to myself "I am SO lucky". It doesn't matter about the car - that can be replaced but neither of my girls can. Thank God that we are all ok, and are able to walk away.
Even in the aftermath of my traumatic experience I am still feeling happy and thankful.