I used to be able to eat what I wanted without any repercussions on my weight.
I used to be able to walk into any store and buy a pair of pants that fit like a glove and ones that I felt comfortable in.
This is not the case anymore. I was once comfortable with myself and my body but now I hate it. I love that it has given me 2 healthy children, but I hate the way it now looks. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror before and after a shower.
I do some WIW posts and theres a LOT of pictures that I DON'T show you guys. I try to keep them from the shoulders up because i'm embarrassed.
Like this next picture I really don't like as it hows my flabby belly.
I try to take pictures at different angles and wear black so I don't accentuate my chubbiness, like this one
I have tried NUMEROUS diets and failed at them all. I no longer "diet" because in the end I feel like such a failure. I have succeeded in losing some weight, but nothing significant.
I gained a whopping 60 pounds when I was pregnant with Eve. I only lost about 30 or so pounds after she was born and maintained that weight for the next 3 years. Then I got pregnant with Lilah and put that 30 pounds back on. Once I had her I lost the 30 or so pounds again and have been somewhat fluctuating ever since.
The thing is....I know how to lose weight. I know what to do. I know I need to eat better, and smaller portions. I know I need to exercise more. I could quite possibly write a book on weight loss, but I can't manage to follow anything.
It's as if once someone or something says I can't have it - that's precisely when I want it. If you tell me I can't have a piece of bread, that's exactly what I'm going to eat.
I know losing weight is all about Lifestyle - and I need to make that change.
What have you done to lose that weight and what changes did you make?